Phoenix

What’s in a name?

 

Some days I go so fast, I feel myself swell with pressure and fever consumes me

until I reach the boundaries of my elasticity and I explode.

I burn out.

I feel my being disperse into ash.

I did it again. I overdid.

I overwhelmed, I overstayed

my tentative welcome in the place of company

knowing full well most people can’t accommodate me

Hell, even I can’t

My soul is too big for its earthly courier

so it rebels and prods and prompts overzealous reactions to earthly stimuli

the momentum never failing to rip the coverage at its seams

and then I am ash

Waiting to be born again.

To put myself back together

To have myself come together

Each time as draining as the last, sometimes more

But then I rise again like a Phoenix

And above it all I soar.

Better now, stronger now.

“what does your name mean? What’s its origin?” “Je ne sais pas”

Nastassian: Rebirth/resurrection; one who will rise again; Breaker of chains

Origin: Russian or Greek with Latin influence as well

Fun facts: it also means birthday or born on Christmas day. I wasn’t but I was pretty close. I’m sure my parents didn’t know this though.

A security guard told me that my nickname could be phoenix when I told him the meaning and thus, a poem was born.

Thanks for reading! Until next post!

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New Music: Beyoncé- Bow Down / I Been On

Beyonce Knowles-Carter is back and she is taking no prisoners! Not nary a one! Oh ma gah!

“I know when you were little girls, you dreamt of being in my world. Don’t forget it…. I took some time to live my life/ But don’t think I’m just his little wife/Don’t get it twisted…Bow down, bitches!”

This is past shade. It’s a full on overcast sky. Hurricane Beyoncé is on the way. Batten down, y’all!

Get into it below and let me know what you think!

Until next post!

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Nastalgic Thursday: Brandy

Last week I read a post on Necole Bitchie’s blog about r&b and pop songbird Brandy and how she made the life of a fan/ makeup artist with a wonderful act of kindness. You can read about it here.

The post really touched me and it gave me hope for the many of us out there struggling who find it so difficult to look forward to tomorrow because we don’t know in what circumstances it will catch us. I was left impressed with Miss Norwood (that’s Brandy’s surname- for now- FYI) and it had me thinking I should share this story and throw some love her way. Struck by another bout of nostalgia, as I have been so often lately, I thought I would make my first Nastalgic Thursday (I felt like being cute and not naming it the typical Throwback Thursday and y’all should know I love puns with my name) about Moesha’s alter ego.

Speaking of Moesha, that’s one of the two tv series that Brandy starred in in her younger years and my pick for her Read More

Google makes my biological clock tick

I recently stumbled across an ad via my Facebook feed for Google with the title “Brand New Baby” and for some reason, I am now thinking of being fertilized. Haha. I phrased it that way on purpose. Alas, law school and my other responsibilities (read: my mother said she isn’t ready to be a grandma as yet) will see a delay on me adding to the world population. Ah, well. Here’s hoping I have a partner who is as excited about us having a brand new baby as the man in this video. Actually, here’s hoping my partner is more active. I didn’t see him Google how to give great foot and back rubs. Hmmph!

Check out the ad below and let me know your thoughts in the comments

Until next post!

New Video: Kelly Rowland “Kisses Down Low”

In case you missed her videos for Motivation and Ice, I feel I MUST share the news with you that Kelly Rowland is in love with her body. And rightfully so! Miss Rowland offered up the visuals for her latest single “Kisses Down Low” and it’s quite a treat for the eyes.

I don’t recall hearing this track (produced by Mike Will Made It) before seeing the video and I think it’s a good thing. The hook and chorus got a bit annoying to me as the song went on. Thankfully, the many looks donned by Miss Rowland served as a welcomed distraction. I think Kelly is beautiful and sexeh. I have loved her simple but appealing approach to her videos- she gets that eye candy needs to be real sweet (sugar-free need not apply)- and the fact that she usually has some foine men on display may be the major reason behind this. Teehee!

P.S. There were 2.5 wigs that I did not like – .5 because one wig looked cute when she lay down with it on. Kelly, that wig with the red highlights seems like a throwback to your Destiny’s Child circa Survivor days but it is not nearly as hot now as when your real hair was styled that way. Maybe it was the shape. 🙂

Anyhoo, check the video out below and let me know our thoughts in the comments.

Until next post!

Happy International Women’s Day!

This one is for me and all my sisters (literally every other woman in the world)!

Today is a day to celebrate ourselves and each other while we continue on in the fight for equal economical, political and social rights as men.

Every year on March 8, International Women’s Day is celebrated. In some countries, the celebrations are bigger than others. I, for one, am a fan of the way they celebrate it in Russia. The theme for IWD 2013 is The Gender Agenda: Gaining Momentum.

You may find out more information on International Women’s Day and the activities taking place globally here:

http://www.internationalwomensday.com/

 

Be thankful for lady parts, they are awesome!

Until next post… xx <– These are my chromosomes, y’all! 🙂

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Melanie Fiona gives that throwback to heartbreak- two in one post

I recently watched Melanie Fiona’s video for Wrong Side Of A Love Song, directed by Larenz Tate, and the split screen effect gave me nostalgia. I remember when I in my late teens that this effect was very popular with r&b and pop videos and I quite liked it. She used it to show the contrast in her relationship with the man she loves and it was quite effective. the eye candy did not hurt either. You all should know by now that I am all the way here for gratuitous male nudity and super hot chemistry on screen. I can relate to the extremes in this video so good job, Miss Fiona for bringing me back. I love her voice and the composition of this song. Check out the video below.

And speaking of throwbacks, one of my favourite songs of hers is 4AM. I KILLED this song last year when I had exams and funny enough, even though it is supposed to be a sad song, all I could think about was how sexy the beat and melody were and how well this song could work as a stripper song (for private shows, not necessarily in the strip club). I would get so lost in the song that I honestly did not watch the video in its entirety until I was writing this post. That’s when I realized the story line. It makes me want to chuckle though because I was left thinking “oh, he popped a Molly, he’s sweatin’!’ Check out 4AM and let me know how this makes you feel. Be honest 🙂

P.S. on the off chance that Miss Fiona is checking this out, why is your latest video not on your VEVo channel? Do better, love. 🙂

Blue Ivy: Spitting Image Of Beyonce and Jay Z

I was browsing the interwebs and viewing other blogs that I frequent (I may love reading blogs as much as I love writing my own) and I happened upon a picture of baby Blue Ivy- offspring of Beyonce Knowles-Carter and Sean Jay Z Carter. My word, she is a cutie and she definitely took both her parents’ genes. She could not be any better a mixture of the two if she was created in Photoshop.

 

blue ivy and beyonce

 

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Smile A While: Poor Michelle

Now y’all know you wrong fo’ this! What did Michelle ever do to you?!

I just cannot! I am without the necessary facilities to be able to can!

This is so much better than any “this one time at band camp” stories. Michelle, boo. Keep ya head  up and keep them gospel albums coming. Shimmy for Jesus. He’d never do you like these folks.

In the meantime, me and my readers will just enjoy—er, observe and review the offerings of Poor Michelle.com

Nothing tried, nothing done: A story of regret

In the past week,  I have had three experiences where I assumed I wouldn’t be granted an opportunity because of either someone saying that someone in my position would most likely not get it or because I talked myself out of something assuming people would not be understanding of my situation as it would require them to be flexible with a deadline. For one situation I am all but sure things would have worked out differently and for the other, I would have liked to find out for sure even if it did not work out. After all,  the most they could say in those situations is no and I would be in the same position as I am now only I would have some comfort in being able to say I tried.
I say all of this to say that it is better to have tried and failed and receive surety rather than not try and wonder what if. Others in my position were told they would most likely not get the opportunity as well but they still tried and it worked out for a few. Now I wonder if I could have been one of them and it sucks.
They say at the end of your life, you regret the things you didn’t do more than the things you did. I’ll get over these situations but I may come upon others that are much harder to come to terms with. I therefore have decided to change my attitude. I will no longer take no for an answer before I even ask and I will be sure to ask and try for every opportunity that I desire.
Have you ever had this feeling of regret where you just KNEW things would be different if you had just tried but this knowledge came a bit too late? If so, how did you deal with it? Let me know in the comments.
until my next post…!

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