Anxiety Sucks. Seven stories. BETMB (T- 7 days)

This post is a heavy one. I enlisted the help of 6 other women to help spread awareness about something as real as any chronic illness but which often times gets downplayed- anxiety. All the statistics in the world can’t describe the paralyzing effect of anxiety and many are walking around without any knowledge that they or someone close to them suffers from this. If this post helps even one person, it will have done its job. Italicized are my thoughts during and after an anxiety attack.

(Each woman was asked to write one paragraph. Some wrote more. Some experienced anxiety at the thought of writing about it. I’m grateful each pushed through to share.)

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1….Ok, here it comes..try to fight it

I’ve always been known as the worry wart. I remember distinctly someone calling me that in the ninth grade. I think, over the years, it accumulated until around my second year in university when shit hit the fan. Read More

Blog everyday til my birthday. T-10 days. Self-love

In (less than) 10 days I will be celebrating my birthday. I will be able to say that I’m in my late twenties and I’m excited and pensive. Because this birthday will be spent differently from the one last year and from any other before. I’m looking forward to it and I’m also aware that it means I’m taking a step further into grown woman-dom. Which got me thinking…

I got this impression that as you get older, as a woman, you eventually stop giving a damn about Read More

Help Fight Loneliness. Just Say Hello.

In an initiative to combat loneliness, Mother O has enlisted the help of celebrities to spur action from all of us. The “Just Say Hello” campaign was inspired, in large part, by Dr. Sanjay Gupta. Some of the reasons behind the campaign are mentioned by him in the YouTube video below.

I first heard about it when I saw Oprah’s bff Gayle King appear on The View to speak about it. She said that people would rather say they are depressed than to say they are lonely. As if there is some shame in loneliness. That’s heartbreaking to me. Somehow society has developed this “I will be my own island” mentality and those of us who embrace our humanity and acknowledge our desire for human connection are criticized or ridiculed rather than embraced.

Now I don’t know what the statistics are for Jamaicans and I find that they’d be largely inaccurate since mental health and education about it is not as key an issue in our society as it is in America. But I do think that loneliness affects us all. While we are a more friendly set of people based solely on our culture, the impact of social media to make us more connected virtually and more disconnected in real life is creeping in on us. With that said, I tip my hat and fully intend to be a part of this “Just Say Hello” campaign.

This is me saying hello to you. Drop a comment here if you wish. I’ll do my very best to reply in a timely manner. And do your part and tell someone hello today that you probably normally would not or who you haven’t said hello to in a while. But be sincere. And be kind.

If you want more information on this campaign, you can read about it here:

Just Say Hello: The Powerful New Way to Combat Loneliness

 

Until next post!

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For the love of cheese. When sinuses attack (Part 2)

The last thing I want to do right now is write. Which tells me two things:

  1. This is how I know I need to write
  2. I am really sick

 

I have spent most of the day in bed. Sinus medication waits for no man or woman. I have slept away valuable hours and I am unsure of what I did while I was awake. I do know I ate and for that, my body is grateful. I thought about two posts to write and I will write them this week. I just didn’t want to seem insincere to try and write about something funny or cheerful when I feel so crappy. I am pretty sure it would show in my writing unless I forced myself to a happy place and, honestly, that’s more energy than I am willing to spare just now.

And I know I’ll feel better if I push through and get to a happy place and I’ll likely  wish I got there sooner but sometimes one just needs to recharge and…be. That’s exactly what I want to do now- to just be.

I’m not feeling sad per se, just maybe a little blue. I feel like being in my shell for a bit while my body heals. And I take comfort in knowing that it can and will do so on its own (ie, without the help of anyone but me). This is not to say I don’t appreciate and will refrain from seeking the help of others when I get sick in the future, not at all. I just find it necessary to do this on my own right now. A couple of hours ago, I didn’t feel this way. I was sort of bummed that a certain someone or certain someones didn’t check on me. Boo hoo, right? But now, I’m actually feeling like I’m glad I can be as gross (in appearance, not in actions) and weak in my sickness as I want and not feel like I am inconveniencing anyone or worrying about how to show my gratitude (which is something that usually causes me so much anxiety, I think it helped delay my getting better most times).

There is strength in knowing you can heal yourself.

That’s the lesson I’m taking away from this.

I smiled as I typed that just now. Ugh! My mood is improving. That was not my intention. I was to sulk a little and explain why I’m not writing a fabulous post for you Nasmaniacs.

Oh, well. Writing takes me to unexpected destinations all the time so I won’t act surprised. I’m gonna go back to watching 40 days and 40 Nights now and continue to have my Nastalgia fix 🙂

P.S. I am not here for all the chocolate sweets that are in my house while my sinuses wreak havoc on me! Pray for my “skrenf”, y’all

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For the love of cheese. When your sinuses attack

I have been feeling aches and pains for a couple of days but I have also been ignoring them. Then I realized that this is all due to my sinus which can be traced back to my increased dairy (read: mostly cheese) intake lately. I usually battle this with honey (by itself, with lime or cinnamon), sinus medication or vitamins but I’ve been slacking and now I am on the verge of catching the flu.

I have had a headache since last night and it returned this morning and I assumed it was probably due to the new braids and then I pt the pieces together- apart from migraines that are my payment for my sins, my number one source of headaches is my sinus (should this be, are my sinuses?) Darn you, grammar. But not really. Grammar, I love you. But I digress…

I now have a slight fever, muscle aches and worst of all, I am getting a sore throat. If this doesn’t start improving soon, I will be locked down with the flu and no one will like that. Not because I’m a crappy sick person (I’m usually too weak to be bratty), but because I apparently resemble someone on their death bed during and the days immediately following being sick.

What gets me is that I haven’t had much dairy. But I think I have been without that for so long that my body is in shock and losing its mind. I haven’t been sick in a while and my healthy period is clearly up.

Your positive thoughts, prayers, cards, gifts (I am partial to fried chicken) are appreciated in advance. Here’s hoping I get back to normal soon. Isn’t it just like me to get sick right before school reopens. The fact that I am going to start a new school is not lost on me either. Le sigh. I hope you lovelies are doing much better than me, immune system-wise.

No xoxo (for your own safety; don’t want to get you sick). All my love though 🙂

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